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Programming Note

I don’t have time for emotions today and YET here I am.

I just finished packing and my luggage is about to explode. This is hell!

For some reason I feel like I’m missing something, when all I ever need is:

  1. An orgasm
  2. Attention
  3. $50,000

I’m leaving to the airport soon and I’m not sure if I’d be able to blog the coming days, or ever again… I mean, hoping nothing go wrong (and I’m still alive) you’ll hear from me.

Otherwise, here are my last words:

To the men of my life

Hubby: I loved you yesterday, I love you still and I always will.
Bunny: From here to the moon and back, I adore you that much.
Justin: You and I, one day, will fall in love again.
Joseph: No one misses you more than I. You marked me for life.
PatrickA: I know the song that makes you think of me. And you also mean all that to me.
Xavier: If there ever comes a day that we can’t be together, keep in your heart, you’ll be in mine forever.
My current lovers: Thank you!

This song is for all of you:

If I don’t come back give my stuff to the less fortunate, all my porn/sex toys to those who need a smile in their soul and my paintings to whoever appreciate my sad work.

Oh! One last word to my boss and to Revenu Quebec: FUCK YOU!

Take care you guys!

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Sweet Of Them

So… Hubby took the to eat and gave me few presents. One of them 2 tshirts and a pair of shorts. And by night besides his fat dick, Randy brought me some pastry as a little bday cake which surprised me because I didn’t expect him to remember anything (he has a flop memory).

However, he sincerely forgot he’s fucking a guy twice his age… So when I told him he was like “liar” and was like “Okay nevermind” lol

Anyway, it was very sweet of both to have such a nice gesture with me.

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Early Bday Lunch

Hubby arrived from Asia last week and he’s taking me for lunch tomorrow as part of my bday celebration.

He wanted to take me to a fancy ass restaurant, but I don’t need that.

Although money is not an issue for him, I told him to take me for dim sum. I haven’t had dim sum in ages and that’s what I want.

However, not happy with my simplicity he wants to give me some cash for my trip and since he’s my ex husband (my current is Xavier and Maluma. I’m terrible!) I was like “sure”

And he even asked me how much I need…

You know… when I said my ex’s are the best it was not bullshit.

They truly are!

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Meanwhile On My Deathbed…

With my cold dying, I got several messages today as if people sensed my relieve.

Hubby a.k.a bello (one of my ex’s) texted me from Hong Kong and asked me what I want as a birthday present… so I told him about my SUNGLASSES. So, he was like….

I love Hubby (even if he doesn’t get me those,) he’s amazing!

Also, Randy (my regular sexmate) messaged me asking me if I needed him tonight… Obviously I told him that I need him EVERY night, but that I was still a bit sick so… not tonight. Sadly. 

Also, I got a message from Marc André (my latest lover) so I’ll probably see him later this week because I win’t be cured until I cum.

And finally, I got few texts from Domenic and Minh, two guys I haven’t blog much about because we are only in talks so far…

Domenic is a nurse so he’s been checking on me as well. He’s nice with me (and pretty much a bastard to other people,) but he’s not really my type. And Minh is an Asian guy who wants to cure me from being a bottom and turn me into a top again. So adorable!!

Long story short, I can’t wait to get busy again.

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Husband’s Week

Apparently it’s husband’s week for me… since Hubby takes care of many of my personal stuff, he came to check the work on my new shower and also invited me to eat. However, I had to go visit my parents so he drove me over there instead. Hubby and I breakup 8 years ago, we were together 7, but he still taking care of me as if we were a real marriage.

Aside from the sexual aspect, nothing has really changed much between us. He’s probably the only man I trust fully and blindly ’cause he never disappointed me. He’s also the only man I’ve ever met that can confront me and make me shut up without saying a word. 

Hubby is my proof that loves evolves in something superior and quasi-divine. Not many people in their lifetime experience this type of mutual devotion, but I am privileged in that area…

Because my ex’s are simply the most fantastic guys!

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Phases & Flashback Chapter I: UNCONDITIONAL

I’ve been pretty busy during the weekend, work and Mother’s Day together was hell rushing home after work to attempt looking human for my mother on her day.

If there’s something that I hate more than “dressing up” is to rush!


Today at work they played a song I haven’t heard in ages,
and spontaneously reminded me of an ex boyfriend of mine.

I unconsciously smiled thinking of him and of those days
when we were young and free.

Since I have nothing fun to write due to the fact that my sex life is on hold since 3 days ago (but feels like 3 years) I thought to blog about those particular songs that bring to me memories of them.

Obviously, I have to do it in parts (or chapter like a book) ’cause I’ve been in love with several guys of various personalities, during the different phases of my life. 

It’s hard to chose only 1 song (specially one that is not sad,) so I’ll post 2 (of the countless songs) for each one. Songs that inexorably make me think of them.


This is the phase of my life when I was decent, immaculate, ingenuous and gave unconditionally all of me.

Hubby: Near a decade together, I have many songs in mind, but the one below came out when we met, and describes it all.

Never a fight, never a frustration, he was the cutest, the smartest, most brilliant, most talented, most romantic, and always brought out the best in me. I discovered the meaning of love, devotion and admiration with him.

Being from Hong Kong I also discovered a new world, a new culture I adopted and expanded my horizons in many ways.

Aside from our devastating breakup (that inspired my first painting named Decadencia) our story was pure joy until the very “end”… And still is.

Bunny: Our relationship was very passionate and INTENSE! We broke up a 100 times, but got back together 99. Since civilised words had no effect, I became aggressive, obnoxious and scandalous in order to deal with him whenever he acted jealous and insane.

He was crazy, but made me crazier to the point of doing the unthinkable… Even calling his mother (who btw loved me) when shit got out of control because his mom was his best friend (super cute) and the only person he feared. LOL

Luckily our neighbours never called the police, but he often played this song to me when he was upset.

Bunny was overall an adorable guy, but also the epitome of WILD and the antithesis of everything I knew. But I admit, it was FUN! However we always had great communication and were sexual soulmates. Our daily sex (or 6 days a week) during the 3 years together was proof of that.

Breaking up with him was very hard , considering that during that time I worked in porn (and since our relationship was very sexual) everything made me think of him… So, it was torture!

But in the end love evolved and to this day we remain confidants and good friends. He always makes me laugh and also makes me want kill him sometimes. I played a lot the song below when he left my apartment ’cause I missed him quite terribly….

Chapter II coming soon…

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Everlasting Feelings

My legs are killing me, it hurts when I open them and it has nothing to do with me getting dick (or maybe does,) but because of the gym.

I really love my new gym, everything is new and it’s visually nice (my biggest motivation,) specially at the times I go.

10 AM or 2 PM are the perfect time ’cause it’s empty.

Another reason that makes me love my new gym as much, it’s the fact that Hubby (one of my ex’s) works in the same building; which provides me instant joy whenever he messages me or takes a break to come see me.

See, despite having broke up 8 years ago, he still has that effect on me.

But to be honest seeing any of my ex’s it’s a joy. 

Our partnership may have ended, but not what I feel for them.

That said, I need to recover soon.

So I can open my legs… In order to feel again!

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