Those are the words I pronounced just before waking up this morning, so I wrote them down to not forget.
The person I said that was Joseph.
In my dream he looked slightly different than how I remember him, but the connection was the same.
I don’t tend to dream of my exes but I had a similar dream few years ago with another one.
It was a very strange dream where Jaden apologised to me and I forgave him for how he made me feel… I rarely remember my dreams, I mostly remember few nightmares but it seems like my unconscious sabotages my will to live without memories of failure, or it simply needs to ventilate my frustrations…
With Jaden by our bad ending, and Joseph by the things I never said to him.
Many people think you cannot fall in love more than once, or twice. Some have never fallen in love in their lives. But me, I have falling in love many times. Perhaps in different degrees but for long enough to recognise that it was not infatuation.
If Joseph or Jaden didn’t mean anything me, I wouldn’t have them in my dreams or have spent many years of my life with both.
I may be haunted by their souvenir, but the memories are what prevents me to repeat the mistakes I made with them. And in this case, at least in a dream, I saw Joseph again.